I’m a bad mood because the second floor of the house is a mess and no one seems to care. Oh well. I cleaned most of the first floor (I’ll do the kitchen near dinner) and some of the upstairs, but like I said, I just don’t think anyone cares about the shit all over the place. I finally had enough with our bedroom and the kids’ books fucking everywhere and lost it today. Oh well. I don’t lose it much.

This morning was ok. I woke later, just before eight, after dreaming of a cross-continent bike ride. Shadow was running next to me for the whole ride. Somewhere out west, late at night in the mountains, I fell from fatigue and almost slid down a mountainside. I awoke in a hotel, worried about my dog, but I found here. Different U people were around. I don’t remember much more. After I woke I worked out for twenty minutes while T watched “Around the World in 80 Days” (Jackie Chan version). I always feel better after I work out. T, S and I drove to church in my (extremely loud and messy) car. We took the backroads through thick fog. M and I sat together in the sanctuary for the first time in six months. Usually she’s downstairs or I feel like walking the lobby. Our minister announced her retirement. I guess I was surprised, although I don’t know why, in hindsight the signs were present. The service was ok. The first service of the year usually features birth/death talk, and today was no exception. Although, now that I think about it, we do a death service around Halloween, too, so maybe we talk about death too much. I don’t know. People lit candles for the deaths and births. No big deal. We sat in the back, where the latecomers are supposed to sit, and we were slightly late, so perhaps we’ll continue to show up slightly late and get the good seats.

T and I drove to Half-Priced Books after the service. He chose some Harry Potter knock-off. I picked up the first book from the “His Dark Materials” trilogy. Maybe I’ll try to read the Pullman and “Thus Spoke Zarathustra” concurrently. We dropped ten bucks (the slacker clerks at the store took fucking forever). We also picked up fast food afterwards. Cheap weekend, all told, which is good, as we’re low on cash.

Oh, a little on yesterday…Shadow and I walked to the snow hill to watch the boys sled. I looked forward to the warm temps but the air was so cold and clammy that we couldn’t enjoy the walk much. Plus the snow hill was slow as hell. Last night I watched “Shoot ‘Em Up.” The movie was better than I expected. You can’t lose with Monica Bellucci and a whole lot of guns. I had fallen asleep early, about seven, but woke by eight, watched the film, and read some Nietzsche before bed.

Ok, more later. I’m calming down.