Today was decent. I woke near 3:30 and answered emails, etc. until about 4:30, when I swallowed some coffee and hustled out the door to reach Redbox before everyone else. I picked up Kick Ass before hitting the gym for thirty minutes on the crossramp and crunches. After showering and eating breakfast I started laundry and hit Harrington Beach State Park with M and the boys. We skipped the beach. S and N fished at the terrifying quarry lake while T and I walked around said lake. Near the end of the loop we were within a few feet of a pair of deer who seemed more accustomed to human beings than, say, vegans might recommend. Oh, the mosquitoes were awful, even during the day, especially on the shady wood path. After getting in the car and agreeing never, ever to camp we hit the doughnut shop. Life is good.

Later I picked up my reserves at the library and visited both Costco and Aldi’s (blueberries are on massive sale at the latter). I read Bourdain, eventually finishing the book tonight, between lifting weights, eating wraps, and watching some of the disappointing Kick Ass. The air is warm tonight, too warm, and I’ll happily crash in the air conditioning. Later in the week I’ll hopefully see James and Melissa and maybe take the train to Chicago.

Today I felt flashes of happiness. I could get used to this “not focusing on work” thing. Yes, yes, I could. And I meditated last night and will again in a few minutes. A weird, almost guilty feeling accompanies the happiness, but I’m learning to let that go. And I’m sure the medication helps. The poems are coming. Tomorrow I might start crocheting. Life is good. Good night.